“Each breath she breaths will be a breath from God.”
Averie Faith Hilliard, Trisomy 18, 09/23/2017, Estill Springs, TN
On 04-25-2017, our 4 year old Emma’s birthday, we received the news that our Quad screening had come back abnormal and that we would need to do more blood work to confirm. After the Screen-Re-DNA test came back our OBGYN called and said everything was fine that the test reported no abnormalities. My husband and I took a relaxed breath and moved on with life. On May 4th we went for our Anatomy scan. Here we found out her sex however she was moving a lot so the ultrasound tech was not able to get any good pictures. We were rescheduled for May 18. I returned that day alone, not knowing what was about to take place. After waiting an hour in the lobby I was finally taken back for the re-do anatomy scan. At the time I wasn’t aware anything was wrong though all the signs were in front of me. The tech would go out of the room and come back in but the scan was complete they got all necessary pictures and I was taken to a room to see my doctor. When he entered the room he didn’t hesitate to ask how I was or how things were going. Me, being the easy pregnant lady, gave my answer as always, “I feel great and everything seems really good.” He then gave me a look I’ll never forget. He looked at me very somberly and said, “Your ultrasound,” I chimed in with, “yeah, they weren’t able to get all the pictures two weeks ago but they seemed like they got everything today.” He replied, “well that’s not what I was going to say. Something is wrong with the baby.” Tears immediately filled my eyes. I was just told two weeks ago everything was fine and nothing was wrong. Now I am being blindsided and I was by myself. I gained what composure I could and that following Monday went to the high risk specialist office in Chattanooga, TN. We met with a genetic counselor and then went in for ultrasound. I knew the risks because I had done my research. I knew what needed to be done and I knew what the future would hold. An amniocentesis confirmed T18 then it was confirmed as full T18. As much as I fill so devastated at Averie Faith’s diagnosis, I know she will have a purpose. I am hopeful that we will get to spend each moment with her before heaven becomes her home whether that be days, weeks, months, or years. Each breath she breaths will be a breath from God. I am happy to be her mom and can’t wait for her to get here so that her dad, sisters, and I can give her all the love she deserves.
Thank you for a group such as SOFT that is here for support to mom’s like me who are just now being introduced to the trisomy world.